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All children have a special place in their parents’ hearts. My daughter is very precious and has given me uncountable, meaningful experiences.
In my twenties, I had no plans to have children at all even after getting married; I was too busy with myself, pursuing my own career as a ballet dancer.
However, my life totally changed after my husband’s death. When I came back to Japan and remarried, I realized that I was entering into a different phase of life-learning, and then, I chose to start a family. However, it was not that simple: I underwent treatment for infertility and had several miscarriages, but I never gave up. One day, in October 2003, I could finally hold my long-awaited baby.
Yet, my life was full of challenges: I had complications during the delivery, and my daughter was born with the serious health problem of anal atresia, a birth defect in which the rectum is malformed. She also had a heart disease, but recovered in a miraculous way after an operation at three weeks of age.
Now my daughter has reached the age of five, and has been doing so well that it seems as if nothing had happened and her birth and been like that of other ordinary children. She has given me priceless gifts which I could have never experienced if I had not chosen to be a parent. I am very grateful that she has helped me to grow so much as a human being.
意味の深い 体験を 私に与えてくれた。
彼女は おむつもごくふつうに はずれ、
あのとき感じた 親としての 胸がえぐられるような
I have been working on creating my life's blueprint with my spiritual concierge, JUJU. I had a session with her in Tokyo last week, and told her what kind of visions had been coming to me these past few days.
The keywords I picked were:
"Space-time environment for Mother Earth"
"Our endangered mind".
This feeling is still vague and hard from me to explain, but recently I’m getting unexplainable strong feelings about our urgent need for attention and the need to take action to reconnect to Mother Earth which is our very root. We need to revalue our ethnic origin and native spirit as earth people who have wisdom from ancient souls in order to address and respond fundamentally to global environment issues and our endangered minds in the age to come. I want to be active, and if I could do something, I would tell the world about these issues.
To travel abroad is one of the best ways to refresh ourselves and get away from trivial rounds, and now we can choose from a variety of travel options. Among them, there are two prominent types of travel, a solo trip and a group tour. They both have pros and cons.
One of the appeals of traveling alone is that we can enjoy the spirit of self-reliance. We will also have a lot of opportunities to reflect on life and to realize that freedom comes with responsibility. It helps us foster a sense of independence and have more confidence in ourselves.
On the other hand, a group tour has its own attractions. We can just sit back and relax, and enjoy the trip. Almost everything is pre-arranged. The cost of a travel package is comparatively low to going it alone and it is possible to receive various services on the road at discount rates. We may also have the opportunity to get to know the other people deeply on the tour.
In conclusion, whether going solo or on a group tour, traveling can be a wonderful experience. Any journey and life may have something in common. The crucial point is what we choose to do. In order to make the right choice, we must first know ourselves well, and then know exactly where we want to go and what we really want from the experience.
If I were awarded an expense-paid trip
to any one place in the world,
where would I go?
Winning an expense-paid trip
would be very exciting for anyone.
If Lady Luck smiled on me
and I were in that position,
I would go to New York City.
I have wanted to visit there again
for a long time.
I studied abroad
and lived in NYC from 1990-1999.
Those days have become
my cherished memories.
One of the scenes
that attracted me the most was
the Christmas illuminations in December.
I also loved looking at church yards,
with the Christmas ornaments and decorations.
Walking by them lit up in the snow at night,
always made me feel incredibly solemn.
Another unforgettable scene was
the entire view of lower Manhattan
from the Brooklyn side.
The buildings started to light up at sunset,
and they were incredibly gorgeous.
With that view,
I was always able to have fresh determination
and get over hardships in those days.
NYC is full of energy,
and it gives anyone
insightful and meaningful experiences.
In NYC, I would want to visit many memorable places
and totally refresh myself,
setting aside the role of being a mother.
I would visit my late husband's grave
in upstate New York,
and tell him the long story of the things
that have happened to me in these past ten years.
NYC has always claimed a very special place
in my heart.
I am sure that visiting there again at this time
would broaden my horizons
and lead me to find my higher potential.
On April 22, 1998, my late husband Frederic was diagnosed with terminal colon cancer and told that he might have less than six months to live. He was only 43 years old. I was devastated that the most frightening thing I ever imagined was happening.
After my father died when I was eight, I never ever wanted to be left behind. I used to tell Frederic that I wanted to die before him; but when I heard the doctor’s diagnosis my ardent wish had to be swept under the carpet.
Frederic lived his life to the fullest and passed away peacefully after a one-year battle with cancer. I did not have any regrets because I had done everything that I could do. What I have learned from the incident is that life goes on, even if my beloved person is gone forever and I must live.
When the most frightening thing I could think of really happened, it could have shattered me completely. But it did not. Instead, I learned that it was my choice how to react and how to face the reality. When I overcame what I had been scared of, I gained the deep confidence and assurance that no matter what happens I would be all right. Frederic used to tell me that FEAR stands for “False Evidence Appears Real.” Life is but a span, and too short to be scared of such illusions
Hi, I'm Mitsuko.
Today, I' m starting a blog.
I am very interested in spirituality, Cosmic Consciousness,
and holistic healing.
In this blog, I’d like to share with you about my daily awareness,
spiritual growth, the quest for my ethnic origin, Japanese soul
and spirituality, and more.
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