On April 22, 1998, my late husband Frederic was diagnosed with terminal colon cancer and told that he might have less than six months to live. He was only 43 years old. I was devastated that the most frightening thing I ever imagined was happening.
After my father died when I was eight, I never ever wanted to be left behind. I used to tell Frederic that I wanted to die before him; but when I heard the doctor’s diagnosis my ardent wish had to be swept under the carpet.
Frederic lived his life to the fullest and passed away peacefully after a one-year battle with cancer. I did not have any regrets because I had done everything that I could do. What I have learned from the incident is that life goes on, even if my beloved person is gone forever and I must live.
When the most frightening thing I could think of really happened, it could have shattered me completely. But it did not. Instead, I learned that it was my choice how to react and how to face the reality. When I overcame what I had been scared of, I gained the deep confidence and assurance that no matter what happens I would be all right. Frederic used to tell me that FEAR stands for “False Evidence Appears Real.” Life is but a span, and too short to be scared of such illusions
Translator. I am very interested in spirituality, Cosmic Consciousness, and holistic healing. In this blog, I’d like to share with you about my daily awareness, spiritual growth, the quest for my ethnic origin, Japanese soul and more. I hope you enjoy reading my blog! 翻訳家。 Awakefulness 真実の自己に目覚め 最高の自分を生きる―― 自分が望む現実を豊かに クリエイトしながら 自由に のびのびと―― 地に足がついたスピリチュアルな意識、心と体、ホリスティック・ヒーリングなどに とても興味があります。深くインスパイアされた言葉や、日々の気づき、想いを 英語と日本語でつづっています。よろしかったら、ぜひ またご訪問ください